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A Day In The Life

Woodworking


Many of the art forms that I naturally gravitate towards are empermeral in nature...snowboarding, dancing, massage, coaching...none of these tend to produce a final tangible form to return to.

I learned to enjoy working with wood and the creative process of imagining something and figuring out how to take it into form from my father. He was a pretty handy man who would bring his artistic flair to practical projects such as a retaining wall or bathroom remodel or a mirror frame. I certainly see some of his eccentric tastes play out in some of my projects.

I like to make things that are both beautiful and functional and am drawn to simplicity and the perplexing...maybe a blending of MC Escher's allusions toward the infinite with the aromatic sturdiness of a juniper. Most recently I have been building a mobile sauna that will be able to venture to mountain overlooks and desert rivers. Look for us in the southern San Juans!

Movement

 

When I am living my best life I am moving my body often and in a variety of ways. This looks like riding the luscious flow state in snowboarding, playing hockey, backpacking trips of various lengths, acro-yoga, strength training and dancing.

I remember going to one of my first concerts in high school - The Mars Volta was playing and I saw people dancing....really just shaking their bodies around a bit and nodding their heads. I felt simultaneously thrilled and terrified as I noticed something inside of me wanting to move my body in new ways and also totally frozen against doing so. This was the beginning of a many year journey that took me to various dance floors at concerts and festivals where my body slowly began to thaw and I eventually regained access to the delights of expressing myself through movement. This is a website that lists many ecstatic dance communities across the globe. 

 

https://ecstaticdance.org/dances/

Challenges and Opportunities

 

My own life journey has included an early infant heart surgery, growing up in a family with addiction, mental illness, an abusive sister and a well-meaning mother who didn't know how to provide healthy boundaries, and early sexual experiences that left me with significant shame and confusion about my body and my pleasure. My world also included access to nature and team sports, an agile body and mind that excelled in acrobatics and school (for a while at least), guidance from dreams and camp counselors, and a trend of basic physical needs being met.

At an early age I learned (both on a bodily, unconscious level as well as a conscious relational level) to track other peoples' needs and states better than my own, to deal with stress by shutting down or becoming aloof or dissociative, and that I needed to distance myself from things like anger, ambition, sexual appetite, and other forms of my power and aliveness. After experiencing the early deaths of many of my friends during my teens and early twenties I decided to move away from Atlanta and my habits and relationships. This probably saved my life and it certainly catalyzed a beginning of my own healing and exposure to new possibilities of what health, relationships, purpose, and life might look like.

 

It is a great joy to get to share from all that I have and continue to learn, and an inspiration to encounter the struggles, resilience and aliveness of each person I get to work with.

Wilderness